i's when i came here i was not wellnot well at all i came here as a site i found to grasp at while i felt i may kill myself i needed help..i typed in self help groupand found this back then it was dealing with abusive pasts againbrought up by situations where i felt used and abndoned again i talked about that and when i told the things that hurt me most no one cared even here that had 2 effects feeling that none really cares about me at all and 2nd if this is the reality.i have to survive because no one cares anyway i have put past abuse behind mehowi cant give an answer just there is a point where you give it away like the times you realise a relationship is deadits like that .it becomes clear the only thing left from it its the i's i can say yes its easy to stop.ive said many times i will and still i do it i say ill do it soonectmaybe no its because i am afraidi will be like i was at first it was i statement s now its any i's and that makes no sence the i's were a letter that points at me accusing me so how can other words do that because thay have i accusing me of what it just feels like a finger pointing at meguilt i guessat feeling i tend to see myself out side myself like a program running on a machine to say I feels like i am the machine
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I have this feeling that you were abused
mentally and emotionally at some point in your
childhood and there is an experience that
directly relates to the letter i.
Maybe I\'m wrong. Either way, you need
permission with this letter, I think.
We should spend a whole week on the letter i and get to the bottom of it.
Sort of like batman spending time with the bats to get
over his fear.
Only when you feel stronger though.
You gotta be strong for that kind of work.
You are doing good work here though.
This is huge \"I feel like it\'s a finger, pointing at me.\"
Also, the guilt you feel with it.
I have a hunch this is not something you can control. It needs
to be explored rather than fixed.
you have always been nice to me here
tonight feel down as is in
emotionaly
i feel a bit upset
.i feel ive ran around so much but im still in the same place
i think im upset because ive realised that
You know, it\'s totally normal to get really, REALLY upset
while you are in constant physical pain.
AND you have to make a major life change (work) because of it.
Physical pain is such a downer.
You are not alone in the feeling like you can\'t get ahead. It seems to
be universal these days.
Everyone I talk to feels that way, even those who seemingly have
so much.
Perhaps you are more in tune
and more connected with the rest of the world
than you think you are.
You have always been nice too! And given some wicked advice
when you feel confident enough.