deleted_user 04/18/2009
hang in there. long day.

alantm 04/18/2009
part one done
i got back in at 3pm
.it was harder than i was told it was going to be
mainly because i made a lot of effort
where others would not be bothered

got up at 4.30 am

didnt sleep well
my heart banging as i worried
about things in my life
as well as for no reason

im still not a well person mentaly
.i rang the turkish girl
she said she was coming back to the uk in a text
i said call when you get here
as normal she didnt
i called to make sure she did get here ok
she said i was going to call you
hmmmmm
said a few things about missing me

but as soon as she settles back in she wont
shes like that
but it was nice to think
she cares at least a bit
better than nothing

deleted_user 04/20/2009
is it better than nothing? I wonder sometimes. It\'s classic carrot-dangling.
You will see that in time.


Good job on making it through the day.