feeling very alone  its as though i waited a year to feel it .ive been by myself a year i cant get away from this feeling .im liying to myself  i am alone   very very alone again and i know how bad this is   im not good at reaching out this will be very painfull againi had hoped to have left this part of my life behind .i called her today ,i felt lonley her phone was off   even if i got though or she called backi know she does not care  how sad is that  no one loves me