not on here much ive gone quiet reallytoday is april 1st fools daythe day she left me today i tryed to talk to her by text she didnt replyi saw her on line at the radio show she looked depressed  she went on line i tryed to talkshe just voided me saying she was busyshe does not care  said im busybut i could see her on line live she wasnt busy at all she blanked me and the year marker and the trying to talk and her not replying to texts at all its really showed up that its over her being away didnt do it but now i feel it i am alone again what do i do now the rest of my life has problems as welli dont know what to doat times i think i just want to go to my room and sleap till its over im back in pain with my legs and hips .i tryed to see docs to day but they were closed they are always shut  i thought about when she last came i was in pain .i was upest about a lot of things i wasnt totaly here i just thought how can i get better ,i said things were not wellthe idiot was fighting me i just feel like i wasnt the best person to be around but i couldnt help that really she just came back to get her stuffand thats very clear nowand i feel used