i went out to another town todayto pass time it hurt walking aroundas it does when im on my feet for longits a strange pain its hard to even explain.it seems to be over a big area  i feeling alone these days.i find moment when i think i wish .... was herebut i have no one to fill that space there is no one to be here  im not living a happy life.im not happy at alli think to myself i have to go somewhere plan something do something somehowbut i cant find a reason or direction  its awfullike slow death when i look at things more i just think why?why where will this get me life only meens something to your self and if your self cant see a point to it its all pointless