when im alone i tend to = always look back to louisenow its not that i dont care about the ones here= gone its just the feeling of love is linked to her thats when i first felt that way so its not that i never loved anyone elseits just linked to that emotion ,,,if you get ithat turkish girl is in london i did love her.if it were a film id run off to london saying here i ami love you ect ...hollywood scriptproblem with that is when id get there she would just say oh hi its you erm how erm nice what are you doing here and after a few days id be back here you cant make someone love youno matter how well scripted it is in your hollywood head when you call and never call you when you text and they dont reply when you are on line and they make an excusse to go thats not hollywood thats real life knocking at the door and its telling you to go away
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i get it.
no way around it. heartbreak is painful. lost love hurts.
the ONLY problem I can see here is why you loved her.
I don\'t know if you really did.
I think you TRIED to love her.
Maybe I\'m wrong.
Who is Louise? Can you tell me about her?
i try not to talk about her anymore
because i have diarys full of that ,and things revoled around her and how she would affect me at the time and after.
it was so long ago now its just an old story
she married again
i do still sort of know what shes doing
she just lost her wedding dress shop in town
ive not seen her for 9 years
.it was rediculus the affect she had on me
im just glad to have got away from all the hurt and upset coping with her did to me .
so you have closure. good.
sounds like she did a number on you.
it was like being ran over by a car
but still standing in the way again
still standing in the way again takes a tremendous amount of courage.