when im alone i tend to = always look back to louisenow its not that i dont care about the ones here= gone its just the feeling of love is linked to her thats when i first felt that way so its not that i never loved anyone elseits just linked to that emotion ,,,if you get ithat turkish girl is in london i did love her.if it were a film id run off to london saying here i ami love you ect ...hollywood scriptproblem with that is when id get there she would just say   oh hi      its you     erm how     erm nice what are you doing here  and after a few days id be back here you cant make someone love youno matter how well scripted it is in your hollywood head when you call and never call you when you text and they dont reply when you are on line and they make an excusse to go thats not hollywood thats real life knocking at the door and its telling you to go away