i just saw a film and i was reminded of the feeling i had when knew a girl and every second i was with her was special time moved to quickly and she would be gone again and i would miss her so much this was 15 years ago and it didnt go anywhere at all it was a screwed up mess for me and upset me a lot see i never win even in love but i just had a shadow of that feeling cross me a feeling i had forgotten
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Okay, this might not make sense.
I read your journal backwards so this must be Louise.
What feeling was a shadow across you? Love?
This was a really hard lesson for me to learn but
love can still live in your heart
even after it\'s gone.
Love isn\'t a game. Men always think in games, it seems.
You say you never win.
The big prize at the end of life (if its\' a game) is death.
the shadow was the feeling of love-ing
i wasnt loved back.
but when did that ever change how you feel
at the time.
I dont live doing the game thing
maybe im not wanted enough to even think there is a game to play at !
but its true i see men doing the game thing all
the time.you are right men on the whole are not worth trust.
at the same time i see some women acting that way
but less so i think.
as for death thats the end mark
its a bit like a free ride for a while
.if you know its going to stop you try to have fun on it while it runs.
my fault?with say for example when she was going home again in 2 days i felt sad because i can see the end again.
i cant live for today when i see the end is tomorrow
wow.
isn\'t that why we are human though? if you could live in
the moment all of the time, you\'d be a god.
you hate goodbyes.
i hate them too.
i wonder why. something to ponder. maybe you just care.
that is a good trait to have.
i hope you can find a girl that mirrors that aspect of yourself.
i think that would make for a very
loving and supportive relationship.
do you like that part of yourself?
i could have a very
loving and supportive relationship
but i cant get there
patience, friend.