getting sick off every thing today in the room i sat looking at stuff on shelfs things id made things i had try to buildthings id bought with an idea to do some thing with it things in cupbords that are just junkall this crap around me all this stuff was ment to be mylife for my romantic life i have about 20 pic 2 cardsand some plastic roses from 5 years agoshe has no pic of me and left all the other stuff here people cant see what i see they dont know how i feel my life really has been a waste of time i just cant think in a way that makes sence to live .im not going to be the one who gets to the end of life there is no way i can live the rest of this as it gets worse year by year
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but you are getting out from a pattern you were in.
the future will be better and brighter.
but getting to the place where you no longer
seek out those who will reinforce the loneliness is
probably the hardest thing you will ever do in your life. but
well worth it.
tell people how you feel.
tell people what you see.
your life has not been a waste of time. that
is depression talking.
you can\'t think in a way that makes sense right NOW
because you are in the midst of fighting
depression.
then you put a bunch of pressure on yourself
to fix your entire life in a day.
changing patterns is like beating addictions.
when you go to make the change, the habits
dig in harder and stronger. like the monkey on the back.
you are moving forward and you are healing.
despite the monkey digging it\'s claws in.