getting sick off every thing today in the room i sat looking at stuff on shelfs things id made things i had try to buildthings id bought with an idea to do some thing with it things in cupbords that are just junkall this crap around me all this stuff was ment to be mylife  for my romantic life i have about 20 pic 2 cardsand some plastic roses from 5 years agoshe has no pic of me and left all the other stuff here  people cant see what i see they dont know how i feel my life really has been a waste of time i just cant think in a way that makes sence to live .im not going to be the one who gets to the end of life there is no way i can live the rest of this as it gets worse year by year