my days are very simple nowi wake.i eat and i go to my small room and practice moving my legs and i listen to the radio ive seen a few small improvementsbut ive thought that before and it got me no where at a performance my days are lonley i talk to myself alot in my head people dont call tomorrow will be the same as today was i thought to myself tonight ,im trying so hard to be able to play music againall week i try for hours and hours i did all the bike rides  and this week i work just 1 nightand the work for the rest of the month is poor the pay is not that good so why am i even trying so hard all these hours its like a dead end  .im running in to a dead end at full speed  when she came back for the weekend her going away is now more clear i am more alonebefore i didnt know what the situation was but now i know she has accepted im gone she doesnt calland when i call her im just greeted as an old friend i am alone.i have been alone for so longeven when i was with someone i was aloneeither it was the feeling of not being loved or that i was with the wrong person im alone .i feel oldertime has gone past me and there is no future but more of this  its not much of a life  .if you ask me what makes life worth living i cant give you an answer .it feels like a prison and one day i will be released