odd day todayit wasnt great more practice most of the day i got nowherelater in the after nooni sat thinking is half my problem really in my head trying to work myself out half trying to say im fine to myselfhalf trying to think like hypnopherapy would work for a while when i stopped trying so hard i made some progressso im trying to work on that small bit of progress my life really is at a full stop right nowif i had my own place i would be in big trouble.i have no real income anymore i need to go in some direction soonbut right now im off the tracks i spent tonight looking at my turkish girl on line on her radio programi sent her a few texts she hasnt talked to me since she went back to londonalmost 3 weeks so that was odd i dont know if i did the right thing even by trying