did an outdoor gig tonight a festival type thing a few 1000 peoplethe head line act got £5500 its still smalla band like Korn get £60.000 for a small showi wasnt on anything like that just £90.00 for my part45 mins it was a hard dayfreezing cold lots of leg and back pain i think the cold made me worse .it was still very hard to play i have tryed so hard all these bike rides hours and hours of practice and im still in trouble that hurts i got a few compilments on my playing levelsaying are you a studio player ? or a teacher ?what back ground do you come from ? i just said i do this and im not well.i didnt notice the crowd at all just in my own world on the way home i pulled in to a shopand i was just a guy walking round by himself againno one notices an hour before i was on a stage with 1000s looking it really points out how fame for the stars is such a hollow thingoff stage by yourself you are just by yourself
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I\'ve heard fame can be very lonely.
I think this is progress. You only started bike riding recently.
Was it any easier AT ALL to play? Maybe the cold was causing this.
Perhaps teaching is the way? Do you teach?
im depressed today
.ive tryed to practice some stuff
but i feel like its hopeless
.i cant do it right and i feel so worn out
i felt in a lot of pain yeasterday
and that has knocked me down as well
.i cant seem to fix anything
ive have tryed so hard
and that makes it worse because i am trying
and i still cant change anything
sometimes just trying helped me in my darkest hours. In those times I tried to focus on those basic needs and then try others when I was stronger. Hope you feel better Alant
you are facing what most people are terrified of.
trying and failing. I\'m terrified of it.
i think your feelings of depression and
hoplessness are totally justified.
growing old can make me feel that way sometimes.
please be patient. you\'ve
only just started the bike riding, right?
and...you played outdoors in the cold.
you may need a couple days to recover from that.
didnt want to get up today
fed up
when i did get up i didnt try to practice anymore
i feel worn out
.spent sometime looking the diffrent pedals i own
looked at my oldest and noticed how diffrent its set
the new ones are nothing like that set up
hard to even set like that
i set the newest as close as i can to my oldest
but i have had a bad time on the old one as well
but..i have worked hard since i last used it
i feel worn out today
.i need to get a room some how and try these new settings
i hope that helps