did an outdoor gig tonight a festival type thing a few 1000 peoplethe head line act got £5500 its still smalla band like Korn get £60.000 for a small showi wasnt on anything like that just £90.00 for my part45 mins it was a hard dayfreezing cold lots of leg and back pain  i think the cold made me worse .it was still very hard to play i have tryed so hard all these bike rides hours and hours of practice and im still in trouble that hurts i got a few compilments on my playing levelsaying are you a studio player ? or a teacher ?what back ground do you come from ? i just said i do this and im not well.i didnt notice the crowd at all just in my own world  on the way home i pulled in to a shopand i was just a guy walking round by himself againno one notices  an hour before i was on a stage with 1000s looking  it really points out how fame for the stars is such a hollow thingoff stage by yourself you are just by yourself