when i was a kid i was always looking for a mother sounds odd but i do remember when i saw someone now i would think ccould this bemy new mum  i had a family so i dont know why i thought like that .i just wanted all the soft stuff in life life was quite hard  i feel life is not that much of a disaster .its just what i knew it was at 7 i saw life for waht it was then most things people want in life are just dreams or shadows and what we think about another person is just our illusion of themsome we say we love some we say we hate its all made up in the end events dont last the past isnt here  there is no tomorrowsits just this state of mind life is just one long day waith dark and light we just make our own sence of it we will be hurt and we will die  and what makes us happy is just a set of rules we have  dont fit the rule and you are sad  the stupid thing is the rules are made up as well so life is just an event we personaly pass though life and death dont meen that much either  its just another rule  die now die tomorrow who is being robbed anywaytime is just another rule made up  we come we go