when i was a kid i was always looking for a mother sounds odd but i do remember when i saw someone now i would think ccould this bemy new mum i had a family so i dont know why i thought like that .i just wanted all the soft stuff in life life was quite hard i feel life is not that much of a disaster .its just what i knew it was at 7 i saw life for waht it was then most things people want in life are just dreams or shadows and what we think about another person is just our illusion of themsome we say we love some we say we hate its all made up in the end events dont last the past isnt here there is no tomorrowsits just this state of mind life is just one long day waith dark and light we just make our own sence of it we will be hurt and we will die and what makes us happy is just a set of rules we have dont fit the rule and you are sad the stupid thing is the rules are made up as well so life is just an event we personaly pass though life and death dont meen that much either its just another rule die now die tomorrow who is being robbed anywaytime is just another rule made up we come we go
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Yes. I find this empowering to realize. Do you?
I did have to allow myself to let the past bubble up though.
It was time and it was alive, inside of me.
Now I can have a funeral for it and let it go.
You have let me in on a few childhood things.
You never really talk about your mom though.
It makes me sad that you looked for a new mom.
Perhaps you\'ve never stopped?
Was your mom cold? Mean?
I think you must have been a pretty smart kid.
Those are some deep thoughts for a young boy to have.
I wish someone could have recognized how
smart and philisophical you are at that age and nurtured it.
So....I know this might not be up your alley but
what about mothering that little boy now?
It works for many. Inner child work.
That boy is still alive inside of you.
Hugs.