im back in my old job for tonight a replacment was ment to come tonight but he got canceled im not sure how i will be treated,but they need me for this job a few other jobs were canceled because i left so work and money has been lost it will be the fisrt time playing since i broke downso i hope i can cope i spent a lot of money on a foot pedal .its ment to be the hardest hitting thing on the marketi got that to try and help my weak legs even though it was £400second hand i had to try maybe that will workhave to see
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OH, let me know how it went.
Maybe this is a good sign.
Maybe they see how valuable you were to them.
they were ok with me a bit quiet at fisrt till they
saw im just the same person i was before
i felt ill at the thought of going on a stage
and the room seemed to much to take in
i felt a bit of panic
and im still ill with a cold
my face is hot alot but hard to tell if its the cold
or stressing
the foot pedalis realy good
it helped lots saved me ...worth the money
helped
i played quite well but a few time i was in touble
people said i looked in pain
hmmm
the second half was ok
till near the end then i ran out of power
and it was as if i had faded away
i got told after that half i looked like some one had dragged me from a hospital bed to be there
it felt like it
hard to breath being ill and i tryed really hard so i was worn out
i bought some super light shoes today
so dont have heavy feet
i got told off saying you doing the worng thing you need to build up
not go to lighter things !
hmmmm
nobody should tell you off.
I\'m glad the foot pedal helped. Good decision!
I really don\'t know enough about your situation to advise but have
you got resources for massage or an osteopath or something?
you are very strong to perform while ill. wow. and in pain
when you are paid to be on a stage
there is no way on earth you have the option to say no i am ill
if you get cut feel ill or anything you are there
the people dont care about you as a person anymore
you are a function
do it now we are paying you !
you cant cancel,cant ring in sick ,cant be replaced
so you do it
you turn off and dont care about your self till its over
i knew a girl singer(she sang backing vocal on billy oceans Love really hurts without you -linda wright) she died on stage
she colapsed and fell off the front off, dead before she hit the floor
first she went off ill before the last song the music kept going round ....
welcome back on stage ...she didnt show the music went round again so she had to go back on........
she was dead within the intro to the song
welcome back on stage