going to the doctors tomorrow i think my mental problems are now greater then the physical ive been told not to mention my emotional state because they will put it all down to that i dont know what to do
and thats what happened
i went back got the same idiot
.i tryed to be more forcefull and less passive
said i want to see a clear path
i told him i just lost my job because i cant function
and the hole thing has gone on so long now
that its wearing me down ,stressing me out
of coarse im stressed its 5 months
i said i have examples i can show hime of how i cant lift
my legs the same
one is very heavy i cant lift both
and he didnt even listen
i came out with nothing
i just got question after question on my mental heath
...this is why i hate the doctors
they read my file and then dont listen anymore
because of all the issues i had at 21 --->
my death phobia obsession and the suicidal things and the way they fucked it up
its not my fault they couldnt understand me
they were the ones typing out big lists of what was wrong with me
and treating me for stuff i didnt have ....
i said i want to be seen by someone who knows how the body works
he was trying to talk me out off it
i said how long is the waiting list
he said over two months
i said fine
when i first went i thought is was a short term thing
but its not
so ill wait 2 months because i know i wount be better
he siad dont get your hopes up
its not as if they will fix you and you will walk out
so didnt expect that
i asked if i could double my pain pills
he didnt seem bothered
yes if no side effects but
then gave a list of bleeding insides ect
i asked about my ear
i have ear ache it keeps me awake and im 80% deaf
he had a quick look and wasnt really bothered
he said by some drops from the shops
holy CRAP. That is one horrible Dr. Is health care that bad there?
I have issues with my Dr. and things could be better by I do feel cared for by him. You need a different Dr. BADLY.
How do we make that happen?
And...I think it\'s SO AWESOME
that you made sure he put you
on a waiting list.
He thinks you are someone other
than who you are. Therefore he cannot
be effective in treating you.
I just got back from therapy and she told me
that mental health treatment is still in the
dark ages. I see that here.
Is there a way to have your records from when you were 21 removed?
I have the same issues with my family.
I tried to end my life when I was 12 and
they have never forgotten. I am always
considered suicidal. But I\'m not.
I would never do that again.
You are so right it\'s not your fault.
We have to find a way
to get help in a shitty system.
It\'s not easy to do when everyone
is telling you it\'s you that is the problem.
Lets think of it as a game. I need this today.
A game of life. Finding help.
when i have been im scared to see it on the screen
i used to be really afraid of it
and i thought at least the times ive been there with bad clods will move the other stuff down
8 months couceling does not look good
thats a lot of text
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yeah.. i know what that is like. Hang in there... you will be just fine. I\'ll send you lots of comforting vibes for tomorrow. XXX
and thats what happened
i went back got the same idiot
.i tryed to be more forcefull and less passive
said i want to see a clear path
i told him i just lost my job because i cant function
and the hole thing has gone on so long now
that its wearing me down ,stressing me out
of coarse im stressed its 5 months
i said i have examples i can show hime of how i cant lift
my legs the same
one is very heavy i cant lift both
and he didnt even listen
i came out with nothing
i just got question after question on my mental heath
...this is why i hate the doctors
they read my file and then dont listen anymore
because of all the issues i had at 21 --->
my death phobia obsession and the suicidal things and the way they fucked it up
its not my fault they couldnt understand me
they were the ones typing out big lists of what was wrong with me
and treating me for stuff i didnt have ....
i said i want to be seen by someone who knows how the body works
he was trying to talk me out off it
i said how long is the waiting list
he said over two months
i said fine
when i first went i thought is was a short term thing
but its not
so ill wait 2 months because i know i wount be better
he siad dont get your hopes up
its not as if they will fix you and you will walk out
so didnt expect that
i asked if i could double my pain pills
he didnt seem bothered
yes if no side effects but
then gave a list of bleeding insides ect
i asked about my ear
i have ear ache it keeps me awake and im 80% deaf
he had a quick look and wasnt really bothered
he said by some drops from the shops
so i walked out of the door with NOTHING AGAIN
holy CRAP. That is one horrible Dr. Is health care that bad there?
I have issues with my Dr. and things could be better by I do feel cared for by him. You need a different Dr. BADLY.
How do we make that happen?
And...I think it\'s SO AWESOME
that you made sure he put you
on a waiting list.
He thinks you are someone other
than who you are. Therefore he cannot
be effective in treating you.
I just got back from therapy and she told me
that mental health treatment is still in the
dark ages. I see that here.
Is there a way to have your records from when you were 21 removed?
I have the same issues with my family.
I tried to end my life when I was 12 and
they have never forgotten. I am always
considered suicidal. But I\'m not.
I would never do that again.
You are so right it\'s not your fault.
We have to find a way
to get help in a shitty system.
It\'s not easy to do when everyone
is telling you it\'s you that is the problem.
Lets think of it as a game. I need this today.
A game of life. Finding help.
BTW, there is a LOT that physical therapy
can do for you.
it can get you back working.
it can help you strengthen
muscles so that you heal.
he was WRONG.
Good for you! Two months is a long wait but
better than nothing.
i read a thing on the web sayinng they dont keep records that long ???
I think you also have a right to see all that is in your file.
You should find out what is in it.
when i have been im scared to see it on the screen
i used to be really afraid of it
and i thought at least the times ive been there with bad clods will move the other stuff down
8 months couceling does not look good
thats a lot of text
and at the end of it when i felt torn to bits by it all they said i think you will find you feel a lot better now
they should have read that agin when i became a cutter
i would be now if it was for the fact i have cryed so much
so that is progress. you cry instead of cut.
even though you don\'t FEEL like you are getting better, you are.
i\'s all over the place
but i can cope
things have been so crazy for me that
i\'s are just a small part of the confusions spining around me like stars