feeling alone  i thought my friends would still be my friends though this but they are not that open  the show i am with at the moment is an unknown show but i liked it because its low pressure and im not that well but next show they asked for me and its the longest running show here its in the top 6 and ive been in the top 6 before so really i will have done 2 of the top 6 shows doing this that is quite a thing   so for my work record its a good lablei already have people  acting more positive to me because of it  its like i have some recognition again