looking back though the sex abuse group posts its awfull ,it really is its like storys from a 100 dead people the awfull things im thinking a bout death more these days because im not well for a long time now and how my life has gone with relationships it just feels like im not really ment to be here .it would be no shock if i was going to die i never was any good alive .i still thought about cutting my self the other night shows how wise i amidiot storys of othe SA are not helping it just makes me think how sick the world is .ive given up on the idead of a relationshipits something i will never have .i just have to make my life something with things i can buyor at least stop these small pains i think im in a different place in my head to people i knowthey seem to ses some kind of future to thingsi just see another day where i will get destroyed againuntill i give up and hide till the day i die
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you are overwhelmed, friend.
understandably.
maybe take a break from discussing, if it feels like you need one.
I can\'t handle much of the SA group either. I totally get where you are coming from.
I think some people are just in a different place.
I wonder if you feel their pain when you read the stories.
Can you see the groups as a tool for you and you only?
You are meant to be here. The trick is finding out why.
I don\'t understand why you feel bad about yourself when you have the desire to cut. How can we work on letting go of that shame?
It\'s simple to me. The pain is overwhelming so you want to cut.
It\'s cultural. The shame surrounding it. Don\'t buy into it. It\'s not just.