when you are a kid you get upset about stuff but in a kid way you know?the normal stuffand as you get older you get upset in a new way 2 times stand out to me as a kid one at 6 or 7 when i felt my self breake with to much pressure and the other was at 10 or 11 in a music lesson i was learning to play violin and the teacher was asking me to show him a certain noteon the music a B or an E or something and the pressure was so much i burst into tears at around 10 i was having a lot of emotional problems but i was silent and nothing ever got noticed it was like i time where things for me were hiddenand i didnt understand any othese emotions i didnt do the troubled teen thing .i just fell to bits in my 20s i didnt have any friends and when i did i ran in to problems trying to deal with themthat made things worse and i ended up very illand afraid of anyone being next to me
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i\'m learning about this stuff right now.
as a kid, my emotions often overwhelmed me. this is normal. that\'s why kids cry and tantrum.
as a teen, i withdrew inside.
as an adult, i tried. i tried. so freaking hard. the emotions caught up with me.
did you ever bury them? did you stuff them deep inside?
what types of problems did you run into with friends?
friends were just so diffrent to me
.i still feel not like them but not as bad now ,
and at the start i had the distence problems ,
i had a list of rules about how i thought the world works
and these people didnt have that
they were very open about sex ect
talking in was i wasnt used to
they had been datting for years
i hadnt
.i didt have that been there done it attitude
i found it confusiong how it wasnt a problem for them