not sleaping wellmore depressed mornings really everything is unstabel for me right nowleaving friends ,job ,girlfriend, my age ,health ,confidece its hard to cling on to anything i really need to have something its like before when things became unstuckno wounder im suffering
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yes. you have a lot going on, friend.
you are way too hard on yourself.
I think you need to remind yourself how strong you are.
And how wise you are.
Think of yourself as a boat.
You need an anchor.
It can be anything,
Mine was a streetlamp.
It stayed on all day, shining on my house. It was all I had (in my mind).
Tell me what your anchor is.
i dont have one
.i used to have my job
but i have just got back from work and it was
an awfull time for me
im so weak that im not what i used to be
,i hate being so substandard
i was really good at it
now all the years of being good are the
only thing getting me though the shows
if i could not swap feet around i would be totlay
screwed
and its really hard even doing that
i alomost walked of stage to night after 3 songs
.i felt destroyed
i sayed and did the full shows but
.i was dead in side i didnt even notice anyone in the room or
on stage
i just closed down
.i tryed not to think about it
when i did i got worse
my confidece is gone
and on a stage with no ability
is the worst place to be
Sorry to hear that you are going through all of this. I do not know if you have ever tried a chriopractor or acupuncture to help get rid of some of your pain. It helps me and I can not take alot of meds due to all of my chronic conditions.
What kind of music?
I hope that you get your confidence back. I am a writer and for a while I lost that confidence. But now I am getting it back.
Good luck to you.
If you want to talk let me know.
okay, so this sounds more than just something you should have to deal with.
please make a dr. appointment.
you need to tell them the following:
you are having trouble concentrating at work
you are in pain
you are sad a lot
you feel overwhelmed
you feel tired
there is help. depression is a common condition.
i will be going back to doctors
but going to say sad or overwhelmed
i want to be helped with feeling weak
not have it all put down to some
ghost emotional state
Sciatica Symptoms
Symptoms can vary from extreme pain in the low back radiating into one buttock and down the leg. Pain often increases on exertion or bending forward. Alternatively, there may only be a mild sensation in the leg or buttock.
There may be numbness in the area, weakness in the leg and diminution of the reflexes