ive been up a lot of hours now today has just been so long the schizophrenic in the house i had problems with isstill around he threw his tv at the wall last week he is very very moody and agressive i cant stay in the same room with himhis attitude is so bad  tonight i tryed to stay down stairs where the big tv is and i lookedat few things on the webi didnt want to be all by myself  he turned off the and sat in silenceso i would know he was in a bad mood again!make it obvious he hated me being in the room  to spoil his  silence that was only to piss eveyone off  he has massive problems  and wont get a grip he stormed out so i went back to my roombefore he got backlet him f ck himself up  i say so i was pushed a bit more into the state i am now  im ment to go to sleap but i cant really see the point .i just keep typing if im not typing in my head its typing on the screen.i talk to myself all the time as if its a diarydisscusing myself and taking many view points  its like im studying my life from outside my self.it get like trying to drive a car but im not even in it im rolling but im not stearing at all