i feel high anxiety.i just dont feel right its like a scream in side somewhere but cant feel it i cant take any action on it .i dont have a direction for it its not quite an SI level but quite close .i need to be held or hold and try to commuinicate what im feeling  work has upset me a bit becasue its quite hard and i feel alone because i feel im not going to be able to do this so easy and the people i work with already are understandingand we know each other over qa long time its like working with friends  .it could be the level of expectioni always have a problem of trying to hard or trying to hit a bar to high for myself given up on i'sim to upest with things .so its to much to cope with now