thinking about the i's im feel a bit embarressed about trying to stop .its like if im seen listing them in a normal waypeople will laugh or snigger that i am seen trying to do it  ho look hes trying to do them normalyso even if i do i will be made to feel bad about it all if i feel unsuported  i will feel its a hard thing and no one cares.if people do suport me i will feel its noticed as trying and pitty me its like putting on wieght and then being afraid to go out running because people will say look at the fat person trying to get thin  im just afraid to change .i know it sounds so stupid :(