thinking about the i's im feel a bit embarressed about trying to stop .its like if im seen listing them in a normal waypeople will laugh or snigger that i am seen trying to do it ho look hes trying to do them normalyso even if i do i will be made to feel bad about it all if i feel unsuported i will feel its a hard thing and no one cares.if people do suport me i will feel its noticed as trying and pitty me its like putting on wieght and then being afraid to go out running because people will say look at the fat person trying to get thin im just afraid to change .i know it sounds so stupid :(
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the last thing it sounds is stupid.
i\'m not sure if this is the same, but i catastrophize.
i imagine the worst possible outcome so i can prepare for the hurt.
i just had a yoga teacher talk about detaching.
she said to try and detach from outcomes.
if we expect to get let down, we get let down. that sort of thing.
i don\'t know if it\'s fear of change or just survival.