dispite every thing i said or even thought  today i got a call about the jobi said no im not doing it but by the end off the call it seems i will be  .i go to see them on wenesday as a job this is what i do its what i do well.its the only time i interact with people outside  its good money and a lot more work so to say no is to denigh what i am  i have to try to do this       

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deleted_user
deleted_user

okay, but if it doesn\'t work out, you can get out of it, right?
deleted_user
deleted_user

i can always leave yes
but i am closing a few doors
i was quite up set last night
,i feel quite close to one
but not a real close just my normal distant thing