tomorrow i am turning down the job i could have improved my income lots  .i took some new pain killers that were on the tvand judged how well i did on them  i went for a run 2 milessomething i could not do  its to hard to explain why i feel i cant do this other job really its part im not up to itand part i dont want to be alone on the road again and i get a feeling that i had last time i was on the road things were a big mess then as wellmy health was destroyed right now i just need a few friends near me money will have to wait