over the worst of this flulegs still ache i did better at work tonightbecause it was divided in to shorter sections  had people saying i should become a teacher againafter my day in the post office the other week i would have to be crazy  just got offered another jobmore work so the pay would be betterbut the situation would be worse because i have no friends there or maybe its because i quite like this singer where i amshe talks to me a lot but i she doesnt like me as anything more  i always end up in that situationshe has buises on her arms from him pushing her away hard but hes still better than i am what an idiot but its always like that   turkish girl hasnt talked in over a week thats over she really does not care about me at all things are very depressing i am feeling alone but things always go bad for me so in some ways im just the same as i always was me myself and i this new job offer is going to mess things up if i leave i will loose the only outside person i talk tomaybe its for the best