deleted_user 12/23/2008
oh, the dark. do you see shadow people? my son does.

i know nighttime is hard for many, many people. nightmares, right?

have you ever researched lucid dreaming?

deleted_user 12/23/2008
as a kid you see things in every shadow
i think thats normal
at one point i used to hear my name being called
while i walked home from school or something in the wind or just at odd times

it got to the point where i didnt like my name at all
.i would feel to strange to hear it said by people.

control of dreams
dreams are linked with lots of every day worries
so its conected to what i think anyway

right now i dont feel clear at all what im feeling
im just feeling things and not thinking.
last night i felt empty and wished i cold hold someone and i also knew when i have done that they didnt understand how i felt
so it didnt help at all.
so it was a stupid thought .

i remember thinking about cutting my arm
thats stuch a stupid thing to think
and while i felt like that i questiond myself
why
but all i thought was the lonleyness
and some how thinking that will connect me to something

ive not hurt myself in years
and im getting to old for these stupid ideas to still be around

deleted_user 12/26/2008
i dunno that they are stupid ideas. i think they are just coping methods.

emotional pain can be totally overwhelming.

i feel like that right now. today. feeling things that aren\'t connected to anything.

thanks for putting how i feel into words. it was bugging me. i also don\'t feel so alone now. my boyfriend keeps asking me what is wrong and I cannot say. I don\'t know.

perhaps we feel the pain of others. perhaps we miss family. perhaps we just are grieving.

things will change.