so black and white thinking im having a lot of thoughts theses days about how i am a failurewhat was ? i good at where was i outstanding  i did a bit in music but ive been passed by the new generationi feel like ive been ran over by a modren car .in fact i an not outstanding at anything at all anymoremy girlfriend even dosnt give me time   its black and white.i have failed  on or off thinking  its like an exampass fail some times i feel like i have failed so i should die  how far i got or how much i tryed seems to be worth nothing but i do notice other people didnt get there either1000s100,000 and i got quite far a head of themso why dont they mind black and white did didnt i didnt get what i wanted .i did try really hard its just i wasnt that person that was going to get there .im just a number like a seed that never grew  dont get this worng i can look at this in clear factbut that does not meen that it doesnt affect me at a great leavel at times its like a clear reason to diei failed so why try anymore .it feels like schoolwhere im a nothing   the crazy thing is that people who know me say im smartand they say i seem to be able to do anythingand my reply isyou really have no idea how stupid i really am my trust in people is at a very low level these days i am a person to and that pisses me off because .i fall into the same traps that i hate as a person  everyone talks big but acts like a small animal in the way they react to the world  and it all ends in deathall the greatest works in the worldare lost  it really meens nothing when your grabing  your last breath life is like being left on an island aloneafter a while you find things to pass the time it becomes a life  but death has the effect of a boat that comes to pick you upand as you sale away you find you never left the island the island is the place you are till you die saling away changes nothingthe only thing that will change you is death