toady like most othersi got though it feeling like a patient  people are telling me things to make me feel optomistic but i dont beleive them today is like yesterdayand the year before so i cant see something new i wish people that say they love me would not leave me so easily.it smashes my worth  to be with someone why ive spent my life alone why would i need someone now  im better at being alone now than with someone with someone would cause to many questions