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if people cant save us who are these people and what do they meen to us  we grieve there loss if they die or leave usthey were never ours we can never own them and what makes them specialcant even be expalinedbut we feel loss loss like a house you used to live in or a favourate possecion you had that is brokenand cant be replacedmaybe its one that can easily be replaced buta new one will not be that one what is this attachment is it some kind of instinct put in to use to make sure we dont walk away from a child or are we so incompleat that we scrambel to hold on to thingsin others that we are missing in ourselfs   or is it we value our self so low that we put high vaule on someone else because we see woorth in some one else more easilyis that really why people who love them self so much make rotten lovers all suffering is created by our mind even if it is created out side suffering is an internal creation  if burnt we are ment to run away .its that simple  but what if you need fire to live  if the first person to get burnt ran away we would have no fire  so suffering is a thing we live with suffering is a learning tool how much suffering if you are hurt to badly the idea of learning will not help at all   so suffering goes beyond a learning  toolit is something more   burninging is a reference to outside painwhat about inside pain why do we need that. why do we hurt ourselfs or even destroy ourselfs  is all pain guilt?loss ?  guilt is a feeling of this should have not happend this way i have done wrong = dissaprovalloss =something has been talken away from me in reality nothing is taken away  things can only be as they are and no other way loss is just an idea of time ahead and time ahead is all imaginaryits a broken dream  all what ifs and if only are just dead paths the only truth is now  everything that happend is now just a memory a story a thought so what about emotionwhat is emotion all emotion is based on what we have felt ourself no one can feel for someone elseits all guessing  so everyone has there own idea of emotionsome feel more sad than otherssome feel more happy its a lottery of who feels whatand the experiences you come across things that hurt us they took away from us made us retchidwhen it ends it has dragged us lower    also  the things that made us better and then were taken away make us less when they are gone  all there is left for safty is middle ground trying to find something to lift us up without falling again is where life heads but there are lots of paths a perfect life for many starts at many levels for someone dying life meens some thing totaly diffrent from someone trying to get a better house   life is like a ladder of goals if you have your life free of pains .if you can servive the day if you can find an easy way to live eat you climb the ladder of things you need even at the top with your perfect life perfect partner perfect car perfect house ect...people start chacing the perfect sex life  ect andmay throw everything away chasing one small thing  the list seems to never end  i may have a very small list of things i need but dont think that,im not a long way up that ladder   the less you need the futher you climbbut also the few things you need become more important  and  have a greater effect on you