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I've been told on this site that if I'm so lonely I should just talk to the people on my friend's list. After all we're friends, right?!
I'm not dissing anyone as friends, but I want to make everyone understand. I'm terrible socially. I can barely talk to friends that I SEE EVERYDAY IN PERSON. Someone can, literally, tell me I'm awesome and I'll walk away thinking "I'm glad they tolerated me :)". It's all part of what's wrong with my brain. I will languish in loneliness until someone talks to me. I don't blame anyone or expect anything different. My social gauges are broken and I understand this. Also sometimes I just get overwhelmed by the world and retreat, which again, is totally my personal problem. Please understand. I appreciate everyone who spares a kind word. Thank you.
I'm not dissing anyone as friends, but I want to make everyone understand. I'm terrible socially. I can barely talk to friends that I SEE EVERYDAY IN PERSON. Someone can, literally, tell me I'm awesome and I'll walk away thinking "I'm glad they tolerated me :)". It's all part of what's wrong with my brain. I will languish in loneliness until someone talks to me. I don't blame anyone or expect anything different. My social gauges are broken and I understand this. Also sometimes I just get overwhelmed by the world and retreat, which again, is totally my personal problem. Please understand. I appreciate everyone who spares a kind word. Thank you.
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Luna, I understand as I feel this way too. Especially when I feel bad, it is best to stay by myself. I try not to but I have always tried to lean on a person and was told to just get over things, etc. This was a neighbor but that was when we talked..Now we don\'t. I will try to get better about keeping in touch too. I have trust issues and can be shy, again especially when I feel bad about myself..Which is more often than I care to admit...Take care of yourself and hope you have a peaceful weekend...Beth
I know many of us that suffer from what you describe. It is much easier said than done. Just remember to seek out those that will stay in touch, and in time, you will find those friendships that are trusting. You never have to feel like you owe anyone any more information than you are comfortable with. I think that is what holds people back, not trusting and then feeling like you may be judged or pushed to tell all.
This is your site, your profile, and you can vent, ask questions, or simply say hello at your own pace. Many hugs!!