Saturday
Although the fight is over and apologized for nobody called today. I usually get a call. I'm too anxious to try, myself. I still have my anti anxiety medication. I thought taking one, maybe getting back on it, would help. It just knocked me out cold. I've been asleep on and off all day. I haven't done anything and I feel a migraine trying to creep up. Looks like going back to bed is all I'll be doing.
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As I am sure you know, you are surrounded by a lot of dysfunction. I would say there is a lot of undiagnosed mental illnesses which is sad because it has affected each generation. Your grandmother sounds like she could have borderline personality disorder. Your mother clearly is in an unhealthy relationship with a man who cannot take responsibility, but it is her choice to be with him. Unfortunately, you are indirectly enabling him by continuing to lend your mother money.
I would suggest keeping a distance and not get involved in their issues. I know you are trying to do the right thing and that is certainly wonderful, but they do not want help and it\'s only causing you stress. You need to protect yourself and focus on your own happiness. Unfortunately, we can not always save those that we love.
I know how hard it is to make friends, but hopefully in time you can find some wonderful supportive friends that won\'t make you feel bad like your family does.
woops this reply was supposed to be to your other entry.
Thank you anyway....it\'s nice to know I\'m not just being crazy. I just don\'t know what to do....