Day 85
It's hard for me to know what to do with myself.
I planned to stay in tonight and get ahead on work, but I didn't feel like doing that when the time came. My significant other was out at a work-only function and I decided to stay at home.
Not much to do. The boredom after you quit gambling is astonishing. I think I should start taking classes or something in the evening. I'm seriously bored in the evenings when I don't go shopping, to a bookstore, exercising, or out with my significant other or a friend.
Maybe that's normal. Maybe the gambling just put my level of "excitement" at a level different from normal. You know what I mean? Where it took far more stimuli to feel like I'm operating at baseline. Since I quit gambling, I find it a lot easier to get through the drudgery of exercise or the tasks I have to do during the workday. It's not so bad. I used to think that it was, needed to eat snacks or take breaks or go do something during the day to make it through. But now I see, gosh, this boredom is just life. It's just mundane and boring and that's why work gets done, it's the only stimulating thing to do during the day nw that gambling is off of the table.
Nothing else even comes close.
I planned to stay in tonight and get ahead on work, but I didn't feel like doing that when the time came. My significant other was out at a work-only function and I decided to stay at home.
Not much to do. The boredom after you quit gambling is astonishing. I think I should start taking classes or something in the evening. I'm seriously bored in the evenings when I don't go shopping, to a bookstore, exercising, or out with my significant other or a friend.
Maybe that's normal. Maybe the gambling just put my level of "excitement" at a level different from normal. You know what I mean? Where it took far more stimuli to feel like I'm operating at baseline. Since I quit gambling, I find it a lot easier to get through the drudgery of exercise or the tasks I have to do during the workday. It's not so bad. I used to think that it was, needed to eat snacks or take breaks or go do something during the day to make it through. But now I see, gosh, this boredom is just life. It's just mundane and boring and that's why work gets done, it's the only stimulating thing to do during the day nw that gambling is off of the table.
Nothing else even comes close.
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