I know I'm insecure  so it shouldn't have caught me off guard when she said he might not be as bad as she thought all over a jacket. Never mind how he cheated on her, hit her, and made her feel like shit. It shouldn't have made me upset but it hurt And that's my problem I know that. I know he wants her back and I am afraid of losing her. The way I see it is this jacket is his way of trying to get her back. Not immediately but kind of like the first step. Another reason was as soon as she told me about the jacket I was looking it up and thinking of a way to pay for it but I guess I can't.  She deserves everything that she could possibly want. I don't know if I can give that to her. Also I don't know why but I keep getting this feeling that the only reason she is... we are... together is that she feels guilty or sorry for me. I don't know. It's probably all in my head but it's just like an itch that I can't scratch.