Well I guess it's over. I don't want it to be but it is. It's for the best or at least that's what I keep telling myself.  I Have A Date Set again. No point in living now that she hates me. I guess it's a good thing she hates me. She Gave Me Hope and even motivation but all I did was fuck up her life. The whole reason I even agreed to apply for that job was so I could make enough money to eventually start a family but now I realize that I am too fucked up for that. I am too fucked up to be alive. Well this is the last time I will post on here. So I guess I'm sorry for ruining your existence and for making you feel negative feelings but know you will be happier with me gone. Peace out.