Call me cynical but the Disney ending, where the nice guy gets the girl of his dreams and they fall in love and live happily ever after, just doesn't seem to happen. In my experience the nice guy generally finishes last. But, I guessthe nice guy does get the girl on rare occasions. However due to past experiences I am beginning to think that the nice guy truly, always, finishes last. I mean look at my track record. Rachel only wanted me on highschool because I was a bad boy. I was the one that would have sex with her when she couldn't stand my best friend anymore. She swore up and down that I was good but the fact that I got her to cheat on my best friend shows how terrible I really was. Then when I became the nice guy she grew bored with me and started fucking any guy she could. yeah it was a long distance relationship so I can understand she had needs but it still hurts. More because she wouldn't tell me about it than the fact that she actually did it.
I am still lost. Right now I am wondering if M was somply saying that she was in love with me in order to I don't know maybe make me feel like I was worth while. i mean what person who is engaged tells a man whom she is not engaged to that she is in love with him unless she is having second thoughts, is fucking with him, or is in an extremely open relationship. I kinda wish I could understand where exactly her relationship with him is but she doesn't share that information. I guess it's up to me to figure it out or something but I'm not aind reader. I mean 2 possibilities are there either she loves him and she just wants me to be more confident or it's all a lie that she has been running with. I don't know what to think. I am confused as to how someone could be in love with someone who isn't their fiance. Unless she just loves me as a friend. Whichbcould make sense if she wasn't jealous all the time. I jist dont know and it is getting frustrating because I know how I feel about her but I'm not supposed to because she is engaged. Pergaps she is seeking a polyamorous relationship but she doesn't seem like the type. I am seriously thinkibg she is just telling me what she thinks I want to hear which is a pain because I want to know what she thinks about me/us and what she thinks about everything.
well I'm drunk and I think I may have stirred the pot a little too much so I am going to bed... goodnight
I am still lost. Right now I am wondering if M was somply saying that she was in love with me in order to I don't know maybe make me feel like I was worth while. i mean what person who is engaged tells a man whom she is not engaged to that she is in love with him unless she is having second thoughts, is fucking with him, or is in an extremely open relationship. I kinda wish I could understand where exactly her relationship with him is but she doesn't share that information. I guess it's up to me to figure it out or something but I'm not aind reader. I mean 2 possibilities are there either she loves him and she just wants me to be more confident or it's all a lie that she has been running with. I don't know what to think. I am confused as to how someone could be in love with someone who isn't their fiance. Unless she just loves me as a friend. Whichbcould make sense if she wasn't jealous all the time. I jist dont know and it is getting frustrating because I know how I feel about her but I'm not supposed to because she is engaged. Pergaps she is seeking a polyamorous relationship but she doesn't seem like the type. I am seriously thinkibg she is just telling me what she thinks I want to hear which is a pain because I want to know what she thinks about me/us and what she thinks about everything.
well I'm drunk and I think I may have stirred the pot a little too much so I am going to bed... goodnight
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