A girl named Ashley sent me a message on meetme. All I could think about was how fucked up I am. How she could never be into a guy like me. How I'm not good enough.  I basically had a panic attack and didn't respond. 
Em has stopped talking to me. Her boyfriend didn't like that we were talking so I guess lost another friend.  
I am chaperoning Jessica's first date on Sunday if all goes according to plan.  Should be interesting. 
Mom is in a hotel for the time being hopefully a level 2 rehab will have an open bed soon.
still on target for leaving after I get paid which will probably be when I get back from the trip to Nevada next week... well I guess 2 weeks from now... I'm not sure if I'm going to go through with it because I worry too much about Jess but it's for the best. It will relieve a huge financial burden on my family. Right now they dont know how much longer the money will last. It will also help because it will allow more financial resources to be allocated to my mother for her treatment. I guess it's the right thing to do but I am a little scared as I should be I guess. It will be a big change.