I can't tell if I'm pushing her away or if she is pushing me away.  I mean it's evident that she doesn't need me. I am beginning to wonder if she is only responding to me out of pity or something.  Almost like she's afraid of what will happen when she finally decides I'm not worth her time. I love her and would do anything for her but if she wants me to leave her alone all she has to do is ask. I don't want to be the one holding her back. I don't want to be a burden.  I just want her to be happy. If she's afraid I'm going to kill myself because she doesn't need or want me. She doesn't need to be afraid of that. As long as she is alive, just knowing she has the potential for happiness is enough for me to keep on living. It's gotten to the point where I don't think she cares about me she is just afraid of feeling guilty. That's how it normally goes. I let people know my most inner and dark thoughts and they want to leave but are afraid to because they think I will do something stupid. I am still here... barely but I am still here.