Going to court tomorrow to decide visitation rights. Not sure what will happen but my grandparents and I have custody of the kids for sure and that's all that matters. Mom failed all but one of her drug tests so I don't know how the judge will respond to that. 
Also I got roped into helping, the guy that abused me as a kid, with moving. He and my mom lied to Jess for 14 . They said he was her father. I tried talking to him about the shit he put me through a couple weeks ago and he said he was so high he doesnt even remember anything from that time. Jess loves him so I'll tolerate him.
My grandfather got back from Armenia today. We worked our asses off trying to organize the boxes in the garage. Really wish I hadnt worked out today... definitely going to be sore tomorrow. 
On the excercise front I have lost 3lbs in 4 days. I smoked what will hopefully be my last cigarette about 10 minutes ago. Jess keeps saying it's looking like im losiing a lot of weight. It's nice to have encouragement. 
Randa. I honestly don't know what to say about her. Well apart from how hiw amazing she is. I was upset yesterday when her best friend and her crush were being total assholes. I got to the point where I wanted to put her crush in the hospital. I just can't stand to see her hurting. I am terrible at trying to make people feel better via text. I am the guy that seriously needs to be be there to hug the person, wipe away their tears, and tell them everything will be ok. It was an awkward experience for me. It felt like razor blades were in my chest and fire in blood. I was hurting and felt so pissed at the same time. I have felt this emotionally before but never on a physical level or to that extent. I guess I truly love her.
 P.s. 17 days 20 hours 32 minutes since I last cut. It's the longeat I have gone since my relapse back in January.