It's the first time in a long time that I am scared.  I can't lose her.  I am scared to death of what might have happened if I didn't text her last night.  She has a date set. I am hoping something will change between now and then because her date will most likely become mine. I have suspended my date indefinitely for now. I was planning on the 14th which seemed fitting but I can't leave her like this. I love her too much to leave. I wish I could help her more but I can only offer her my words which I fear is not enough. I hope she changes her mind.