The depression is getting worse. I can barely make it out of the house for therapy. All I want to do is lay on the couch and sleep. Well, I try to sleep but my mind keeps racing and I can't calm down. I have ativan which helps but I can't just keep taking them. The urge to cut is stronger and I'm starting to think maybe I should. It will help release some of the pent up emotions inside me. This is bad, depression getting worse and now I'm justifying the urge to cut. I was afraid this would happen. I feel its only a matter of time before I cut. Pity, I was doing so much better.
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(((((hugs)))))
Please don\'t pagan. You have been doing well, and I believe you will continue doing well. You are going through the most difficult thing in life: grief! How about picking up some art supplies and some blank paper and just fiddle around with the process of coloring, shading, watercolor is good. Sending you calming thoughts and a (((hug))) of strength.
hang tough pagan! reach out to us, or reach out to your therapist or one of the friends who encouraged you to reach out that you mentioned! you can do it!
big hugs!!
You\'re stronger than those urges P. don\'t give in to the lies that the depression is trying to tell you. Hang in there. Have you expressed this to your t? ((Hugs))
Never give up! Never. What does your therapist say about cutting...what are some things you can do to prevent it?
Are you going to work? I hope you\'re keeping up w/your normal routine. It really helps.
We don\'t need to hurt ourselves, life has done enough to us already. Think of some relaxing type things to do instead....go for a walk, go see a movie.
You don\'t need more pain in your life. You will get better, I promise.
Hugs. You are having a rough time that requires you to be more caring of yourself. If you feel like you are going to harm yourself, please go to the ER.