I've been to the hospital the past two days for most of the day but today I decided not to go. I couldn't. Its too much for me to handle. I can't bear to see my dad suffering so much. I feel weak for not going and I feel guilty for not being there for my mom and the rest of my family. They are understanding and don't hold it against me but I still feel terrible about it. I will be there tomorrow and mon. and tue. as well but I couldn't go today. I'm not handling this well.
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We do what we can, P... that\'s all we can do. I have limitations this weekend that are making me feel guilty too. I\'ve been pushing myself, but there\'s a cost, and if I could handle the consequences, it\'d be one thing, but that\'s not the case. I think you are doing something similar to me. It feels awful, but we don\'t have much of a choice. At least that\'s how I feel. Sorry if I\'m totally missing how you might feel.
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Oh gee Pagan, I didn\'t know your dad was sick. I am so sorry, and sorry for the pain you must be going through. Do what you can and throw guilt out the window. It doesn\'t serve any purpose. I don\'t have any advice...it was incredibly hard when my dad got sick. I felt so helpless. It hurts, a lot. Be strong Pagan...you can do this. It\'s something we all end up going through, You are in my thoughts.
peace to you. and to your family. i know it is hard to think about thinking about yourself during times like these, but I know you are there for your Dad in spirit when you are not there. Just be there for your Dad as you can. It\'s a hard time. Again peace to you.
Sending ((((((hugs)))))) of support to you Pagan. Please lean on us all here as you need during this difficult time. I\'m sorry to hear about your dad, and sending much love and strength to you. Hospitals are not always the easiest places to be in, but know our spirits are with yours in support.