Dads getting worse. He's been in the hospital before but I feel like he won't make it out this time. I wish I could think more positively. I feel terrible. Feels like I'm slipping into the darkness again. I wish I knew what to do. Cant think straight and my emotions are all over the place. I wish I were a stronger person.

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malibumark
malibumark

hi Pagan, I am really sorry to hear this. I hope you can find something to focus on during this time - to either meditate on - or focus on. Sending peace and strength to you. Mark
rubyblue
rubyblue

I am so sorry to hear your dad is still in the hospital Pagan and he is not improving.... I am praying that he does begin to feel better soon and get to go home asap

I think when our parents are getting on in years and become ill it does become a reality that one day they will be gone.... hopefully this is not the time for your dad

it\'s not about seeing yourself as a stronger person Pagan altho I completely get where you are coming from... my sis has had breast cancer 3 times and not once have I been to visit her... and her husband passed last year and I just couldn\'t go there either.... I feel like such a weak person... but what my therapist is helping me understand is that we are strong...... but we have our limitations too... this illness at times makes us feel like we can\'t cope at all.... that\'s when a good support system is important... shrink... therapist... family... friends... DS

anyone in your situation would feel overwhelmed Pagan.... my mum is ill and I have anticipatory dread too..... I think those who we perceive to be \'strong\' (like my sister) are actually able to turn off their emotions and deal with things.... whereas folk like us don\'t turn them off but feel them intensely.... it\'s trying to find that balance.... feeling the feelings but not feeling over powered or overwhelmed by them.... for me talking it through with friends helps..... they say a problem shared is a problem halved.... it\'s a bad clich but it has some truth to it..... if you want to talk just pm me

and please don\'t tell yourself you are a weak person bcs you are feeling so emotional.... accept those emotions are valid considering the situation you find yourself in

(((hugs))) xx
sadiegirl13
sadiegirl13

(((Hugs)))