I'm tired today. I thought I got a good night sleep but I suppose not. I'm just sitting in the chair feeling indifferent to the world around me. I'm not even sure if thats a bad sign or if I'm just tired and could care less about things. I feel emotionally precarious. I could cry or fly into a rage at the drop of a hat or any other emotion in between. Things feel like they are slowed down a bit, hard to explain. Oh well, just thought I would try and verbalize how I'm feeling since I have a hard time putting how I feel into words. I guess this is practice. I don't know, I'm tired and talking nonsense.
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It sounds like you might be a little shut down???? Not fully, but enough that you just don\'t give a shit. The feeling indifferent, and like things feeling slowed down are what make me say that. I don\'t think you\'re talking nonsense at all.... how can we be talking nonsense when we are talking about our feelings and perception of things? (I\'m a huge hypocrite for saying some of these things, but you know it\'s easier to say these to someone else rather than yourself, so please excuse me for that.) Do you feel like sleeping? or just spacing out? I do the spacing out thing quite a bit, and having that glazed over look. My t always notices. It\'s ok to be shut down for a while - it\'s protective. I have no doubt you will come out of it when it feels safer. Hang in there friend. xo
Maybe listen to some music? If that\'s something you like to do. Talking is good; I second sadie on this...even though, when I talk, I am very self critical, too. Your friends are here to listen x
You\'re not talking nonsense! Journaling is a great way to get those thoughts OUT and away. That\'s one great leap forward! xoxo
I\'m sorry you are feeling out of sorts and precarious... not a nice place to be.... you are not talking nonsense Pagan.... you are trying to reflect on how you are feeling... and as SK says... journaling is a great way to do that
(((hugs))) x
Perhaps it\'s the long hours at work that\'s doing it?
you\'re ok Pagan! Sometimes when we\'re tired we can get negative or down on ourselves. You\'ve always been exceptionally well expressed to me, so from my end just get some good rest! You deserve good things!