I know I have not written in a long time so here is an update. I seem to only write the bad but its time to write the good. I have been getting better through lexapro therapy and support from my DS friends. I am very thankful for all of you who have helped me. I am trying to pass that on to others here who are struggling. I know its hard and so I will always try and help those that I can. I have a green face now which is the first time since I have been on here. I am back to work and getting back into the real world. I am ready to move on and start a good life for me and my little girls. Still lots to do but I am going the right way. Remember that all of you here are special and deserve to feel good. I have made so many friends that I can't fiend enough ways to tell you all how lucky I am. In a more private note I have met someone who I want to go out on a date with in real life.