It's hard for me to understand trust. It seems that I have always made bad choices with whom i given mine to. I thought I was getting better at this these days. I was wrong. It seems that I am still someone who allows themselves to be used when needed and then discarded. Now self doubt which has always been so prevalent in my life has taken it normal hold over me after I was feeling progress with my decisions. I started to trust that I was a person who was worthy of being liked and who could accepted for my true self. I feel that is a lie. I am good enough when someone needs something or can use me for some service and then I will be forgotten. Luckily I am doing better with my battle against deppresion or this pain would surely have killed me.Scott

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Trust is so easy to give, and hurts so badly when used. I\'m trying to be there for you when you need a friend, I just don\'t want to be pushy. You know how to reach me if you need me.
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big hugs to u
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I am so sorry you are hurting my friend. How can I help? *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs*
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Scott, I am so sorry that you are feeling like this---it is a very hard pill to swallow when you realize that there are truly people in this world who have no conscience and will use and abuse the kindest souls.

Just remember that the ignorance is not in you, but in the person who has taken advantage of you, my friend. Learning when to trust is a life-long lesson--if I can add personal commments here; I am 52 and still have the same thing happen to me frequently. I just cry, yell, rail at my misfortune and try again the next time, dear one.

Although my comments may not help your depression, know that I am sincere in telling you that I am her for you to chat if you would like----any time, my friend.
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Trust is such a precious commodity...why do people feel the need to use and abuse those who try to reach out? So sorry you are hurting, my friend...big huggles and snuggles
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I am STRONGER today because of the trials I SURVIVED yesterday.

I\'m here for you buddy.
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i\'m so sorry you have to feel this way. *hugs*
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I hear you scurrie,I am a fellow giver and am someone people feel obliged to take advantage of.I have even taken an assertive class.That made me lose everyone because if I can\'t give out i am not worth being friends with.Take Care.
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*hugs* I am so sorry you have been hurt...
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Im glade you got this off your chest. When we let our guard down we are likely to be used but what I learned is I have to change what I expect of ppl and not give so much so fast. Thats my lesson, I hope you can learn from it.
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know how you feel
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hugs, sorry you are hurt, you are a great person!!
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I\'m here my friend... you have been here 4 me, i want to b here 4 u...
hugz...
:)
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hey i know all about being used and trusting too fast ..its all good u know i used to be upset about it but now i just walk away and its their loss not mine...i am a better person and i deserve better so i dont bother with losers anymore ..
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Hey i know were ur coming from scott...

jUST HANG IN THERE HUN. AND TRY TO STAY ON TOP OF IT ALL...
HUGS XX