WTF

I'm really sick of this roller-coaster.  I have no idea why I'm spiraling downward yet again.  I can't identify a single trigger, certainly none that were absent during the previous few days when i was just as serene as could be...  If anything, being one day closer to my vacation i should be feeling better.  I probably shrug it off it it weren't for the tremendous guilt i feel about going ballistic in front of my little boy...so SICK of this sh*t.  want to bawl and stab someone at the same time...(i won't.  just stating the feeling)